Anonymous asked: what does ur last boyfriend mean to you?
right now. nothing really.
he did mean alot to me at one point. now his just a mate and a pain in my ass at times
Anonymous asked: whats ur most cherished memory?
every moment i spend with doug.
every moment ive had with my bestfriends in qld
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All I Fucking Want…..
is to pass out and not wake up for a fucking long time. I feel like shit, Can hardly walk. ANNNNND People at work think I’m fucking pregnant. -.-” Now I’m Only 19 Fucking Years Old. Do Ya Realllllly Think I’m ready For Kids??? Didn’t think so (Y)
hate feeling so shit, and not having anyone here
dear courtney-anne prt 2
now, you knew from the start that i would ultimately push you away, hell i push eli away every damn day, yet he continues to push me to talk. he knows how full on everything down here has been, for the simple reason i hardly talk.
and i was angry when i said what i said, i didn’t mean it to be horrible, i was just pissed and wasn’t even thinking when i typed that. and you know perfectly well i used to say it without meaning it, hell ive heard you say it a few times about a couple people that will remain nameless because they don’t need to know that you said that.
now about the boyfriend thing, my life is far from “great” or “happy” he is an aspect in it that has played a massive part in my happiness. the only thing that would make my life great or anything like that, is if i was back in queensland with Kristy, bree and my soon to be born nephew Zavier. And chris knows that very damn well.
also, i did believe you, you may not think i did, but i did. buut its also hard when people are in your ear saying that you said things, and it being not just the one person but multiple people telling you EXACTLY the same thing…
dear courtney-anne
my reasoning for not putting your name on most bitchy posts is because, does everyone really need to know who i am bitching about. i may be just letting off steam, also, when i said go die in a hole, really you took that to heart, how many times have i said it and meant it?? NONE!! you made me angry and pissed off, the shit people i trust were telling me, well, why should i have thought any different. you’ve said it all before. AND if you think i’m going to hit on your boyfriend, or anyone else’s for that matter, I’m in a perfect relationship right now. I’m currently living with this person, and we spend practically all our time together. They have complete trust in me, as i do in them.
now, the name calling? thats kinda low, for someone who told me they would never say that about me and always think of me as a sister even if we were fighting and “hated” eachother. I refuse to talk about you, for the simple fact, talking about you hurts, because i lost someone who meant a hell of a lot to me.
you can think what you want about me, i won’t say any different. but everything you say, does get told to me, so stop saying im stalking your page, when i’m clearly not.
Do you…
Know what its like to have to force yourself to eat most days. What its like to drink yourself stupid some nights. Do you know what its like to feel the cool blade on your skin as you make a new cut. What its like to starve yourself for days on end because you hate your body…
I do. It’s the worst feelings possible. Heartbreak doesn’t even compare. Maybe that’s why I’m so fuct up half the time..
